Sunday, November 23, 2008

11/23/93 - Fifteen Years

I still miss my Dad.

Most of the time it's a dull ache; other times it still has bite. I do know this -- you never completely get over it. Maybe some people do, but I won't.

Fall is when I miss him the most. His birthday in October when leaves start to fall, the death date in November when the trees begin to look stark and bare. Every year I remember it like it happened yesterday. The cold, harsh, sunny day when it happened. The crushing migraine and tears. The numbness that followed.

So much water under the bridge. But, really, no time at all.

10 comments:

LL said...

*smooch*

Jeni said...

I can relate -totally. Somethings leave such indelible marks on us. But then, would you want it any other way?

Dianne said...

hugs

Beth said...

A big cyber hug from me too.

dr sardonicus said...

No matter how long it's been, our loved ones never totally leave us.

(Word verification for this comment: "weepi".)

fermicat said...

Thanks, y'all.

Debo Blue said...

My father left 11/23/99 and his favourite holiday was Thanksgiving.

Sometimes life, in all its glory, sucks.

Kathleen said...

I'm so sorry that you have to deal with the pain.

*hugs*

tiff said...

I can relate. Been 17 years this winter for my dad, and I still can't believe he had the nerve ot leave us so soon.

BC said...

Nov 10th was 4 years for me. Its really hard. But I try to think back on the good times and laugh. There havebeen alot of times that I wished he was here to help me with something. But I tend to sit back and think about how he would have done it or what he taught me.

But just know that you are not alone here and that you can always talk to someone about it and get a million hugs in return.