Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Meltdown

It was inevitable.

Yesterday - home sick with migraine (a rare event, me taking a sick day).

Today - worked in spite of dull headache. New equipment training session sprung on me. Was miserable.

Bailed out as soon as I could, and went home to crash. High winds and a power outage woke me up abruptly. A thunderstorm soon followed. The power outage is widespread. I'm irritated because it is hot in the house, and dark. I had planned to have some down time this evening, but sitting around in a hot, dark house is not what I had in mind.

So now I'm at the pub (but not drinking - I cut way back because of studying). Had a hot meal and a club soda and feel marginally better. There is air conditioning, computer access, good eats, trivia and TVs, and a few of our friends are here. But I just sit here huddled over my laptop, not feeling very social. PDM keeps trying to make me feel better, and I keep disappointing him by being non-responsive. I'm stressed and crabby and tired. There is a huge weight on my shoulders and this is not going to change until after my test. I just want to be left alone. (And fed. I like it when he cooks me a nice dinner.) It doesn't help that we keep getting new stuff at work - a major software upgrade next week, plus lots of new hardware. I have to learn all that stuff during the day, then go home and study all of the test material. Some days it is too much.

And if I haven't driven all of my readers away with my pity party post, I promise to post about something other than my stupid test next time.

12 comments:

LL said...

I don't mind the test whine... at least it's not about cats. :P

A goooooooood nights rest will cure what ails ya!

Jeni said...

Hey - if it helps at all to alleviate the stress load by whining or bitching about whatever comes to mind, then you go for it! Do whatever it takes.

wa11z said...

Just drink until you pass out and problem solved.

magnetbabe said...

I am happy to be at your pity party. You checked in on me more than once while writing up my dissertation. We're pulling for you, and ready to read what you have to say - no matter how pitiful. I know you'll do wonderfully!

tiff said...

Bitch away - that's what the internet is for!!

fermicat said...

Thanks y'all. Today was ever so slightly better, although I haven't found the energy to study yet (and probably won't). Had some technical difficulties at work - every time they upgrade one thing it screws up something else! I had to try hard not to fly off the handle about it. I'll have to try to solve the problem tomorrow. :-(

Dianne said...

You have sooooo much going on and you have to off-load some of it.

Why not here!!?

It's your blog and you'll bitch if you want to.

Minnesotablue said...

Hey, bitching is a good old American pastime so bitch a way. We all need to do it occassionally

JennyC&F said...

here here to dianne, it's your blog have a pity party if you want to! Gosh, I bithc all the time, havnt driven anyone off yet (jsut the comment posters!) LOL

Kathleen said...

Stop by my blog...I've been whining and pitypartying for a month now - or would have if I posted more than twice in July.

I've had a headache for two weeks - not a migraine, but still not fun.

I hope things will be better very soon...test is when?

Kathleen said...

Oh, I think cat blogging helps migraines. ;-)

fermicat said...

kat - I believe in "cat therapy". Sunshine is having a pity party over at her place. Feel free to stop in and grouse over there!